The Power of Surrender
The Liberation of Letting Go
Introduction:
Why do we take things so personal? I think it is our human nature to take things personally as we create stories in our head to try to reason why certain things happen in our lives. I know many times in my life I asked “why?” I’ve had several clues and nudges all week and last night I had an “aha” moment which somehow shifted everything. Let me explain.
A week ago when I was in a Reiki session, I kept hearing the voice “just surrender, you need to let go.” All week I was asking what that meant as I’ve been doing this hard healing work and thought I was surrendering. I thought I was letting go.
Also during the week during my EMDR session, I heard the voice tell me that I was a beautiful soul. Every time we were working on strengthening the new thought pattern of I am worthy of love and acceptance just as I am, I kept having a bright white light filling up my body from toes to the top of my head.
Last night as I was working, I got this “voice” in my head. It said “it wasn’t about you, it never was about you.” I literally had tears running down my face and all of a sudden it hit me. I needed to take myself out of the equation.
You see, the story I told myself and believed all these years was that I must be a bad person. I had bad karma and juju. I was a mistake and I had no purpose except to allow people to hurt me. Last night when I heard “it wasn’t about you, it never was about you” helped me see things clearly.
Yes, this is my life and my story. The life journey I’ve been on is mine. The role I played in this story though has shifted. You see, the unfortunate situations that I experienced such as the childhood abuse, physical assault, and sexual assaults, and everything else in between was never about me. I was just the one who was in the line of fire.
The way I am viewing this is that if all those things didn’t happen to me, it would have happened to someone else because the perpetrators would have committed those crimes targeting someone else.
I woke up this morning feeling good about myself for the first time for as long as I can remember. It felt very freeing to finally “let go” of that role I played and taking it so personal.
In conclusion, the journey of self-discovery and healing is often marked by moments of profound realization and transformation. As I reflect on my own experiences and the insights gained along the way, I am reminded of the power in shifting our perspectives and releasing the burdens we carry.
Through the guidance of Reiki sessions, EMDR therapy, and moments of clarity, I've come to understand that much of what I've internalized as personal flaws or failings were never truly about me. They were the result of external circumstances and the actions of others.
Realizing that I was not the target but merely caught in the crossfire has been liberating. It has allowed me to release the weight of self-blame and guilt, making space for self-acceptance and forgiveness.
As I wake up today with a newfound sense of peace and self-assurance, I am reminded of the importance of letting go of the stories we tell ourselves and the roles we believe we must play.
I invite you, dear reader, to embark on your own journey of introspection. What stories are you holding onto that you're taking personally? What burdens can you release to pave the way for greater freedom and self-love? May you find the courage to let go and embrace the beauty of your own journey, knowing that it is uniquely yours.
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